Diagnosis

Went to the doctors at 4.20. He'd still not heard anything. I headed home.

Then, at about 6.00 p.m. he turned up at the door in person. As soon as I opened the door I knew it was bad news. He was ashen and said 'it's bad news I'm afraid'. We went into the front room and sat down. He simply said that the biopsy result had shown it was malignant. Great shock, Teresa cried. We tried to ask questions but were just too numb really to ask anything sensible. Thankfully the younger children were out with James F and Amy at the pictures so weren't around.

We were due to share a meal with our best friends Nick & Sarah Hearn which we did anyway. This was the best thing to do, they are fantastic mates. Nick took the younger kids out so we could tell Amy & James F on their own. We ate, had a glass of wine and tried to forget what we had just heard.

I phoned close family and friends from Nick & Sarah's garage. Mum and Dad were together with Adrian & Ann and were really upset, lots of tears. I can't seem to cry yet.

Still no results from the scan so we don't know how far this has spread.