Time to 'fess-up'. I had my first serious blubber last night. Until last night I'd held it all in. It's being here. Worked my way through half a box of Kleenex. We love this cottage so much and had so many hopes and plans for the future. We were going to retire here, bring our grandkids here, share it with our family and mates. This may not happen now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hoping and praying for a miracle but that's in God's hands. It's up to him. It might not happen. I don't subscribe to the school that teaches that any doubt on my part will 'lose me the miracle'. Fortunately the Bible says you only need faith the size of a mustard seed to move a mountain. Mustard seeds I can do. It is difficult to stay positive when all the medical folk (who are heroes) don't hold out any hope for the long term. Talk to them about timescales and they talk about averages. The average life expectancy on chemo is 9-12 months with this particular cancer. I should manage longer because I'm young and fit. No one talks about me getting better. I want to confound everyone by going into full remission through chemo and prayer alone. Don't worry I'm not miserable, infact the crying did me good, felt peaceful (if not a little dehydrated - slobber, slobber) afterwards. As my dad always says 'better out than in', he's talking about flatulence - but the same principle applies surely???
We had a lovely day today in Concarneau, it really is a beautiful town. The photo is the tiny chapel we always visit here. We pay a call every holiday, light a candle, ask for God's blessing. It's right on the sea front overlooking the bay and very peaceful. The weather was, once more fantastic; not a cloud in the sky and about 16C. We had a great lunch in lieu of Valentines Day at our favourite eatery 'Le Clos Minuaet' near Tregunc - a restaurant we can recommend if you ever stop here.
Didn't get onto '24' last night, got caught up with a documentary about Jelly Fish. Got some catching up to do....
No sign of hair loss. All bits in tact. Swallowing is, once more, back to normal and infact I'm feeling really well nearly six weeks since diagnosis.
Have a great evening and a fantastic Thursday.
Luv Dave.
