Yep guys, there's a new, fresh and horrible looking viscous little sod of a white speckled tumour in my oesophagus - at least I can see the little bugger (on the endoscopy pic) and so my visualisation techniques can be based on reality. They are not sure if it's totally new or an old 'patch' they missed before but whatever it is certainly growing (for the first time) and malignant. Not good. However, you know me Mr Positive Pants (actually fine new ridiculously expensive Calvin Klein pants) and 'better the devil you know'. At least there can be a focus to the fight now. We are, in reality back to square one. In essence we face battle # 2 and I'm up for the fight - bring it on your miserable bitch! OK, rant over - needs loads of prayer from my Christian brothers and sisters and any other incantations, positive energy and good vibes from those of other faiths and non. Please.
This is the first negative news since my healing in Stockholm last April which was nearly 12 months ago. Baring in mind the original prognosis of 9-12 months (on average) this is in actuality quite positive.
I knew it was back. Just read my last few blogs. Why? Well physical changes as my swallowing got worse and (as with the first time) psychological changes, yep I just got depressed - I suppose as body chemicals screwed up the balance in my brain. I am reassured that the Lord cares and is with me. I have no doubt about that! Not looking forward to more chemo; apart from anything else I had grown quite fond of my hair again. I will, of course take any treatment I'm offered no matter how ill it makes me feel (and trust me it does).
On a serious note (there are few things more serious than holidays) as we are in Dubai for Easter so our cottage in Brittany is available (for free apart from a clean and a lawn mow) for any regular blog reader we know. We might go for the final weekend of the Easter holidays but it is available for the week before Easter and the Easter weekend itself. We love to bless by letting people use 'Ty Carys' for free so just let us know. We can book you a ferry on our Property Owners card for a little bit less than it will cost you normally.
We arrived in Ireland on Tuesday flying into Cork and stopped there last night. We visited a Kip McGrath centre there this morning and then drove to Killarney for another visit. Then... on to Galway. Mad itinerary but fantastic countryside, good food and great service in the hotels. Tomorrow after a Galway visit we have to drive to Derry in Northern Ireland. We have centre visits in Derry on Friday and a regional meeting for Northern Ireland on Saturday before flying back.
Some mad things I want to do..... see a live performance of Handel's Messiah in London, dance till the early hours, create the perfect garden, spend a lot of time on Rachel Louise (my boat in case you were wondering) and go to the cottage in France a lot. Also really looking forward to Dubai; we go two weeks today.
OK guys. Think that's all. Keep praying and crossing any body part you've got (where that's possible).
Want to thank Sian, Chloe and Geoff H as well as Nick & Sarah, John & Amanda, everyone at WNL and my family for their ongoing support. Of course Teresa (AKA Florence) is my #1 supporter, nurse, companion and hero!
See you guys, God Bless - thanks for being there for me.
Luv
Dave
4 comments:
Dave, not sure if we are just a distant memory now, but it is kylie from LA6, I am an avid follower of your blog. Just wanted to say that I am thinking and praying for you and your family, Kyles
Dovid, and Flo,
Been swearing a bit myself about this!
In Welsh, of course.
Seems you are a "smarty" pants, as well as Mr. Positive pants.
As Joe Pasquale once said, when removing a wedgy..."I paid £25.00 for these knickers,and I've got £12.00 of them stuck up me arse".
You missed one very important thing off your list of things to do...get Carys a pony!!!!nag, nag.
Well, let the next round begin, we are ALL up for it, we're gonna stare this monster down...right?
Neil says at least your hair will grow back again, when his left, it left for good!
Enjoy the Emerald Isle, but remember to let God minister to you now and again.
He lives,He loves you, He goes with you.
LOl as always,
Sianaroonie x
Well Mr R, here we go again and there isn't anything we can't do as long as we have complete faith and a positive belief that things will turn out well. Naturally, I didn't want to read the news about the results of your endoscopy but as you say we can all really lock on to and focus completely on that nasty, viscious little ****** and will it out of your body into the outer stratasphere, never to be seen again. Stay strong my friend and know there are many of us out here watching over you and thinking about you and wanting the best for you. A big hug is winging its way over the telephone lines to you, Teresa and family x x
Dave & Teresa, well obviously gutted to read your news - but as I've just said talking to Chloe this am, you are such a positive person and role model for us all that if anyone can beat this b---er then you can- and hopefully the good ol'NHS can throw everything at it that they've got! We are looking forward to having Carys over for Emily's birthday party/sleepover Fri eve - whether they will actually get any sleep is another matter (Emily is already planning the midnight feast that the 3 of them will have...). Enjoy the hospitality of Ireland (perhaps a pint of the black stuff?) and try and fit in some quality time as well,
Thinking (and praying in the way I do) for you, Jane & Nick x
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