Wednesday, March 3, 2010

A moment to reflect..

Today I looked back over some of the 2+ years worth of blog entries that David and occasionally myself and Chloe have made. If you get a moment today I suggest you do the same. It makes powerful and often moving reading. The scary thing is how fast the time has gone...and yet at the same time I almost struggle to remember what life was like before the big C came into our lives.

If I am honest since that time it has dominated our every waking moment and continues to affect everything we do. Yet it has also encouraged us to live life to the full and almost to live each day as if it was our last as a family together and that has been fabulous. Looking back on the last 2 years we have had some amazing times and wonderful experiences and I have treasured all of those good times and have found a strength through the difficult ones which I never knew I had and I am proud of myself and of all the wonderful people in my life who inspire and help me.

On a recent trip to the hospital one of the nurses who was treating David said that I had 'a hard calling'. Although I had never thought of it that way it struck me that it is a calling in so many ways and although it is not one I would have chosen it is one that I am privileged and honoured to try and fulfil. I am not sure what the next 12 months will bring...health or sickness...good times or more difficult ones but I do have the peace that comes with knowing that I am not alone on this journey and that I am blessed....I pray that in the madness of today you get chance to look back over the past few years or months and know that you feel the same.



Florence

3 comments:

Jackie G said...

Dear Florence,
I have done exactly what you said and you are right, it's an amazing journey that you, David and your family and friends have taken. The words that have been written in so many of the blogs made me cry because they are written with such honesty and with so much feeling, including the comments that have been made by so many. There have certainly been lots of highs and lows and what struck me was how resilient the human spirit is. It must be so very difficult for you at this time as it looks as if David is really being hit hard with this next round of treatment. I agree, you should be very proud of what you do because it takes a great deal of courage to stay strong and cheerful through scary times. My heart is full of emotion and I want so desperately to make this hurt and pain go away and give you all back a life without any worries or concerns. At least you have your faith and belief, which I know brings comfort and reassurance. Thinking of you, praying for you, sending love to you - your friends, Jackie & Don G x

Anonymous said...

Hi David

We are thinking of you and your family from over here in the land of oz , I am following your rocky road and cheering at the highs and praying through the lows. I think back to when we were children(just a few moons ago!!) and then watching your Mum and Dad in one of their musicals together( a few moons later!) and then on another trip being lucky to see you with your family and Amy still young, now she is married,how wonderful but hard to believe. Praying this next lot of treatment goes well and is a bit more gentle on you, have fun with your gloop. Please give my love to your Mum and Dad for me and plenty for you and your family.
take care thinking of you love Michelle (Wilkinson)

Anonymous said...

Hi Flo,
Yes, what a journey, a rollercoaster ride! Highs, lows, plateaus, but all faced with faith, love, and sheer determination to "Stare the Monster Down".
As Jackie says, we all yearn for you to have back your lives without the big "C" in it, and we continue to pray for "no trace".
Whatever lies around the corner, you can be sure that Christ faces it with you, and carries you through , and that in the craziness, you continue to inspire and encourage all who have the pleasure and privelage of knowing you.
May you continue to laugh and love in abundance.
Every blessing to you all at Chez Redders,
Sianaroonie