Hi Blogland,
Hit the office this morning with Teresa at 7.30 for the delivery and installation of 15 new PCs for the tuition centre. Sometimes I forget just how big Teresa’s business has grown. At our two centres (Bedford North & South) she and her team of 10 tutors teach 265 children per week. The old PCs were getting ‘tired’ and were ready to be pensioned off.
After that we went to the Primrose Unit so Teresa could be taught how to change my PIC line dressing. While I was there I mentioned that my mouth was very sore at the moment. Next thing I know I’m seeing the consultant, having blood tests and being prescribed special mouthwashes. The chemo mucks up your chemical balance and make your mouth quite painful. My blood tests were great again – they were worried I might be getting ‘low’. All this took much longer than we were expecting of course and so by the time we’d finished off setting up the PCs and doing the daily banking the day had gone! Friday’s supposed to be Teresa’s day off. Never mind. Settling down tonight to watch ‘Stardust’ on DVD with the kids, a fire and a scotch (that’s the drink as well as Chloe our mad and irresistibly daft Scottish au pair).
I notice the weather has taken a turn for the windy; typical, my mum struggles on a calm sea never mind a gale. My parents are jinxed. Every time I take them to France there’s a storm. Last time it was so bad the breakfast display in the restaurant collapsed and the shops were awash with broken bottles. We are praying for good weather on Sunday night for our crossing from Portsmouth – St Malo. We are just going for a few days to work on the cottage.
Anyway ‘Stardust’ beckons.
Have a great weekend. Dave xxx
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Fun At Newport Pagnell
Hi guys
Not much to report today, had to meet with our financial planner this morning. Some of the policies I’ve claimed on were in joint names so we need to replace cover for Teresa. After that I headed up the M1 to Newport Pagnell services to meet my friend from Cliff College. Rhianan and myself were part of a little group of night owls who would stay up long after everyone else had gone to bed watching ‘worldly’ DVDs. Great fun after a day of heavy theology! We had a good chinwag, caught up on Cliff College gossip, talked about our dissertations and drank coffee. It was great to see her.
This afternoon I picked up Carys from school because she was having book fair and I wanted to buy her a book or two. Mission accomplished though was ‘nobbled’ by a few people in the school playground who said ‘not seen you for a while how are you?’ and then wished they hadn’t!
We are planning a trip soon to hear a preacher/healer (Bill Johnson) from the states who is in the UK at Harrogate for the New Wine leaders conference soon. You can check out what New Wine is about at www.new-wine.org. He’s seen seeing an unusual amount of miraculous healings recently at his church in Redding, California (www.ibethel.org). The Harrogate conference is full (we are on the waiting list) but he’s in Stockholm a few days later so we might go and hear him there. Any of you out there heard of him?
Also have a opportunity at out home fellowship where we are hosting a ‘Glory School’ in the whole ‘soaking prayer’ model. Can’t get along in the evenings but might manage it during the day Saturday.
Just to say if anyone is local and wants something special to do on Mother’s Day morning we have an all age service at Wootton New Life at 10.30 am – you’d be welcome directions can be found on www.woottonnewlife.org.uk .
My wonderful mate Dee has blessed me again sending a fascinating book of John Wesley’s correspondence called ‘Yours affectionately, John Wesley.’ Really interesting stuff for a Wesley aficionado like me! Once again, thanks Dee!
Well we’ve got an early start tomorrow morning as 16 new computers arrive at our Elms Farm tuition centre at 7.30 am (!) so I’d better be thinking about an early night tonight. By the way swallowing is OK today, quite tired again though.
Once again God Bless and thanks for you support.
Dave xxxxx
Not much to report today, had to meet with our financial planner this morning. Some of the policies I’ve claimed on were in joint names so we need to replace cover for Teresa. After that I headed up the M1 to Newport Pagnell services to meet my friend from Cliff College. Rhianan and myself were part of a little group of night owls who would stay up long after everyone else had gone to bed watching ‘worldly’ DVDs. Great fun after a day of heavy theology! We had a good chinwag, caught up on Cliff College gossip, talked about our dissertations and drank coffee. It was great to see her.
This afternoon I picked up Carys from school because she was having book fair and I wanted to buy her a book or two. Mission accomplished though was ‘nobbled’ by a few people in the school playground who said ‘not seen you for a while how are you?’ and then wished they hadn’t!
We are planning a trip soon to hear a preacher/healer (Bill Johnson) from the states who is in the UK at Harrogate for the New Wine leaders conference soon. You can check out what New Wine is about at www.new-wine.org. He’s seen seeing an unusual amount of miraculous healings recently at his church in Redding, California (www.ibethel.org). The Harrogate conference is full (we are on the waiting list) but he’s in Stockholm a few days later so we might go and hear him there. Any of you out there heard of him?
Also have a opportunity at out home fellowship where we are hosting a ‘Glory School’ in the whole ‘soaking prayer’ model. Can’t get along in the evenings but might manage it during the day Saturday.
Just to say if anyone is local and wants something special to do on Mother’s Day morning we have an all age service at Wootton New Life at 10.30 am – you’d be welcome directions can be found on www.woottonnewlife.org.uk .
My wonderful mate Dee has blessed me again sending a fascinating book of John Wesley’s correspondence called ‘Yours affectionately, John Wesley.’ Really interesting stuff for a Wesley aficionado like me! Once again, thanks Dee!
Well we’ve got an early start tomorrow morning as 16 new computers arrive at our Elms Farm tuition centre at 7.30 am (!) so I’d better be thinking about an early night tonight. By the way swallowing is OK today, quite tired again though.
Once again God Bless and thanks for you support.
Dave xxxxx
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Shake, Rattle & Roll!
Hiya
You’ll be pleased to know that I feel much better today (not feeling narked or knackered tonight!) despite being woken up by the earthquake at 12.55! Surreal really. We both woke up, Teresa said ‘what’s that?’, I said an earthquake’ and we both went back to sleep! Not that earthquakes are a common occurrence in this village. Nothing much happens here to be honest.
Was able to get out to Asda (excitement) this morning for a much needed shop and have done a few bits to the church website on http://www.woottonnewlife.org.uk/. This is quite a new site, a few of us built it recently so its still a bit ‘raw’ but getting there. Other than that I’ve taken it easy again today. Might even have a Chinese tonight though I’m a bit concerned that the swallowing is problematic again. No where near as bad as before the first chemo but certainly not as good as it was. Keep praying for me!
Spoke to my friend Liz tonight (work colleague) whose husband has the same condition as me and is about a month behind on the treatment timetable. They’ve just heard he can have surgery which is great news for them. A real answer to prayer. His name is John Owen, please pray for him too!
I’m looking forward to meeting another of my friends from uni tomorrow. Rhian works with the Salvation Army in Northern Ireland but is over on the mainland for a few days and meeting me for a ‘frothy coffee’ and bun at Newport Pagnell services (I know how to treat a girl!). Also meeting our financial adviser tomorrow to replace all those policies that we’ve just claimed on for Teresa. If you’ve not had a financial review recently have one soon! We were pleasantly surprised with the level of cover we had for serious illness but I must confess had no idea how much cover we actually had until we checked in a panic post diagnosis.
See ya guys – God Bless!
You’ll be pleased to know that I feel much better today (not feeling narked or knackered tonight!) despite being woken up by the earthquake at 12.55! Surreal really. We both woke up, Teresa said ‘what’s that?’, I said an earthquake’ and we both went back to sleep! Not that earthquakes are a common occurrence in this village. Nothing much happens here to be honest.
Was able to get out to Asda (excitement) this morning for a much needed shop and have done a few bits to the church website on http://www.woottonnewlife.org.uk/. This is quite a new site, a few of us built it recently so its still a bit ‘raw’ but getting there. Other than that I’ve taken it easy again today. Might even have a Chinese tonight though I’m a bit concerned that the swallowing is problematic again. No where near as bad as before the first chemo but certainly not as good as it was. Keep praying for me!
Spoke to my friend Liz tonight (work colleague) whose husband has the same condition as me and is about a month behind on the treatment timetable. They’ve just heard he can have surgery which is great news for them. A real answer to prayer. His name is John Owen, please pray for him too!
I’m looking forward to meeting another of my friends from uni tomorrow. Rhian works with the Salvation Army in Northern Ireland but is over on the mainland for a few days and meeting me for a ‘frothy coffee’ and bun at Newport Pagnell services (I know how to treat a girl!). Also meeting our financial adviser tomorrow to replace all those policies that we’ve just claimed on for Teresa. If you’ve not had a financial review recently have one soon! We were pleasantly surprised with the level of cover we had for serious illness but I must confess had no idea how much cover we actually had until we checked in a panic post diagnosis.
See ya guys – God Bless!
Race for Life Bedford
Morning Bloggers!!
Just wanted to let everyone know who still doesn't that on Sunday July 20th about 50 of Dave's female admirers are going to be walking - I do stress walking and NOT running the Race for Life course in Bedford in support of Cancer Research UK and in moral support of my wonderful hubbie. If there is anyone out there who would like to join us who hasn't already then please get in touch with me at tmrkipmcgrath@aol.com or peaktandd@aol.com and I'll email you the details. We are going to try and get most of the registrations in by the beginning of next month so please let me know asap please.
When I first let everyone know that myself and my Kip staff wanted to do this and threw it open to anyone else who might want to support us I was overwhelmed by the response - we're so blessed to have so many wonderful friends. The idea is that we all walk together - kids (female) can join us too if they wish. We are all going to have t-shirts with 'I'm Doing it for Dave' written on them and he is going to have one which says 'I'm Dave' !! It's a chance to get together, have a laugh, raise as much money as possible to help beat the ***** that is cancer and then we're going to try and organise a barbeque in the park for everyone or something like that (that is going to be up to the men to organise - we need to give them something to do so they feel useful) so that it can turn into a bit of a party afterwards to celebrate our achievement and give everyone a boost - especially David!!
Once again - thanks for all your support, prayers and love...we couldn't make it through the day without you guys....honest.
Teresaxxxxx
Just wanted to let everyone know who still doesn't that on Sunday July 20th about 50 of Dave's female admirers are going to be walking - I do stress walking and NOT running the Race for Life course in Bedford in support of Cancer Research UK and in moral support of my wonderful hubbie. If there is anyone out there who would like to join us who hasn't already then please get in touch with me at tmrkipmcgrath@aol.com or peaktandd@aol.com and I'll email you the details. We are going to try and get most of the registrations in by the beginning of next month so please let me know asap please.
When I first let everyone know that myself and my Kip staff wanted to do this and threw it open to anyone else who might want to support us I was overwhelmed by the response - we're so blessed to have so many wonderful friends. The idea is that we all walk together - kids (female) can join us too if they wish. We are all going to have t-shirts with 'I'm Doing it for Dave' written on them and he is going to have one which says 'I'm Dave' !! It's a chance to get together, have a laugh, raise as much money as possible to help beat the ***** that is cancer and then we're going to try and organise a barbeque in the park for everyone or something like that (that is going to be up to the men to organise - we need to give them something to do so they feel useful) so that it can turn into a bit of a party afterwards to celebrate our achievement and give everyone a boost - especially David!!
Once again - thanks for all your support, prayers and love...we couldn't make it through the day without you guys....honest.
Teresaxxxxx
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Fess Up #3
I crashed today, I’d had such a great weekend and post chemo period this time but woke this morning feeling awful. Blinding headache, tired, low in body, mind and spirit.
I was placed under strict instructions by Teresa not to do anything which I know is wise but I confess leaves me feeling guilty. Like so many professional people today I’ve lived life at such a stupid pace for so long that (apart from holidays in France) I seem to have lost the ability to ‘be’. I vegged out and fell into the clutches of ‘day-time-tv’. How many ‘buy an old house and do it up’ programmes can they screen in one day??
I know I need to take it easy – don’t tell me off! Teresa has banned me from XLR8 (Church Youth Group) tonight – more cause for guilt; of course my fellow leaders are lovely it’s no problem I’m just cursed with a massive dose of ‘PWE’ ‘Protestant Work Ethic’. There’s no way I’ll be up to anything after 7.00 tonight. XLR8 is a real joy, the kids are fantastic, polite, keen to learn and really into God. It’s a privilege to be involved with the group. Sorry I can’t make it tonight guys – be good for Mu & David.
Miserable toads at an insurance company have turned down a claim today. It was only one of those ‘year’s cover for a small loan’ policies so not that important but because I was on Lansoprazole for indigestion they are claiming I had a pre-existing condition. This is outrageous. The percentage of those on this particular drug that end up with esophageal cancer must be minute. We always take these policies out don’t we? I wonder if they ever pay? I got this blighter out of the blue, the consultant can see no evidence of acid damage to my oesophagus therefore the indigestion was not a contributive factor. I’ve worked in the financial services industry all my life; I’m ashamed of how they muck people about at point of a claim. I mean, how more straightforward could my case be? To be fair all the big policies are paying out OK so please forgive my ranting; I’m just narked about this one.
Even as I write I’m feeling brighter – this blog is so cathartic. Good for the soul.
I received some lovely cards today; one from our friends the Thasan’s in Great Barford and some more of John Wesley & his chapel from Dee Vincent-Day. Thanks guys and thanks to all those who’ve written, phoned, e mailed or sent cards – you’re all fantastic.
Well I’m bushed so time to ‘hit the sack’ I think.
God bless (sorry if I've been a bit of a narked old misery guts today).
Dave xxxxxx
I was placed under strict instructions by Teresa not to do anything which I know is wise but I confess leaves me feeling guilty. Like so many professional people today I’ve lived life at such a stupid pace for so long that (apart from holidays in France) I seem to have lost the ability to ‘be’. I vegged out and fell into the clutches of ‘day-time-tv’. How many ‘buy an old house and do it up’ programmes can they screen in one day??
I know I need to take it easy – don’t tell me off! Teresa has banned me from XLR8 (Church Youth Group) tonight – more cause for guilt; of course my fellow leaders are lovely it’s no problem I’m just cursed with a massive dose of ‘PWE’ ‘Protestant Work Ethic’. There’s no way I’ll be up to anything after 7.00 tonight. XLR8 is a real joy, the kids are fantastic, polite, keen to learn and really into God. It’s a privilege to be involved with the group. Sorry I can’t make it tonight guys – be good for Mu & David.
Miserable toads at an insurance company have turned down a claim today. It was only one of those ‘year’s cover for a small loan’ policies so not that important but because I was on Lansoprazole for indigestion they are claiming I had a pre-existing condition. This is outrageous. The percentage of those on this particular drug that end up with esophageal cancer must be minute. We always take these policies out don’t we? I wonder if they ever pay? I got this blighter out of the blue, the consultant can see no evidence of acid damage to my oesophagus therefore the indigestion was not a contributive factor. I’ve worked in the financial services industry all my life; I’m ashamed of how they muck people about at point of a claim. I mean, how more straightforward could my case be? To be fair all the big policies are paying out OK so please forgive my ranting; I’m just narked about this one.
Even as I write I’m feeling brighter – this blog is so cathartic. Good for the soul.
I received some lovely cards today; one from our friends the Thasan’s in Great Barford and some more of John Wesley & his chapel from Dee Vincent-Day. Thanks guys and thanks to all those who’ve written, phoned, e mailed or sent cards – you’re all fantastic.
Well I’m bushed so time to ‘hit the sack’ I think.
God bless (sorry if I've been a bit of a narked old misery guts today).
Dave xxxxxx
Monday, February 25, 2008
Teresa To Be A Real Florence After All!
Hi Everyone
I'm well and truly in the rucksack, warm and comfy on dad's back. If you've not read the comments posted on yesterday's blog you'll need to for this to make any sense. It's great when God confirms what He wants to say to you twice on one evening through two different people who don't know each other and haven't talked about it!
I went this morning to the Macmillan Primrose unit to have my PIC line re-dressed. They draw blood through it then flush it through with saline and replace all the tapes and clips that hold it in place. The chemo nurses at Primrose have asked me to take Teresa next Friday to be trained how to do this for me. My fantastic Tez really will be 'Nurse Nightingale'! Can't tell you how brave Teresa is being. I must be the most blessed man in the world. She's working so hard, keeping Kip Mc Grath afloat, running the home, looking after me and comforting those who are upset or worried about me. She's amazing. WOW! More than anything in the world I need to make our 25th wedding anniversary in three years - I promised a cruise years ago and Teresa intends to cash in the chips! Three years would be a complete miracle in itself so roll on 12th April 2011.
Managed to rattle off 1,000 words on my dissertation today, so I'm getting there slowly..... Should make the deadline. I'll be carrying on tomorrow
I know I mentioned this yesterday but it was great to see so many folk last week. It really lifts the my spirits - thanks for coming Joy & Julia, Mum & Dad, John & Amanda.
Health-wise feeling tired today, need to take it easier tonight. I'm looking forward to heading back to France for a few days with mum & dad next week to work on the cottage. Don't worry there's not too much to do; more of a 'jolly' really and a thank-you for mum & dad. There's nowhere that's better for my brain than that daft little cottage.
Chloe was away over the weekend at a party for her brainy Grandpa (80th) in Scotland, she got home last night and seemed to have a good time. James & Carys are doing well - Carys is still Rummykub obsessed - we had to play three games last night - still its good for her maths.
Hope you all had good a Monday, enjoy your evening.
Luv
Dave
I'm well and truly in the rucksack, warm and comfy on dad's back. If you've not read the comments posted on yesterday's blog you'll need to for this to make any sense. It's great when God confirms what He wants to say to you twice on one evening through two different people who don't know each other and haven't talked about it!
I went this morning to the Macmillan Primrose unit to have my PIC line re-dressed. They draw blood through it then flush it through with saline and replace all the tapes and clips that hold it in place. The chemo nurses at Primrose have asked me to take Teresa next Friday to be trained how to do this for me. My fantastic Tez really will be 'Nurse Nightingale'! Can't tell you how brave Teresa is being. I must be the most blessed man in the world. She's working so hard, keeping Kip Mc Grath afloat, running the home, looking after me and comforting those who are upset or worried about me. She's amazing. WOW! More than anything in the world I need to make our 25th wedding anniversary in three years - I promised a cruise years ago and Teresa intends to cash in the chips! Three years would be a complete miracle in itself so roll on 12th April 2011.
Managed to rattle off 1,000 words on my dissertation today, so I'm getting there slowly..... Should make the deadline. I'll be carrying on tomorrow
I know I mentioned this yesterday but it was great to see so many folk last week. It really lifts the my spirits - thanks for coming Joy & Julia, Mum & Dad, John & Amanda.
Health-wise feeling tired today, need to take it easier tonight. I'm looking forward to heading back to France for a few days with mum & dad next week to work on the cottage. Don't worry there's not too much to do; more of a 'jolly' really and a thank-you for mum & dad. There's nowhere that's better for my brain than that daft little cottage.
Chloe was away over the weekend at a party for her brainy Grandpa (80th) in Scotland, she got home last night and seemed to have a good time. James & Carys are doing well - Carys is still Rummykub obsessed - we had to play three games last night - still its good for her maths.
Hope you all had good a Monday, enjoy your evening.
Luv
Dave
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Great Weekend With The Stampedios!
Hello troops!
We’ve had a great weekend with our friends John & Amanda Stamp from Derby, their daughter (Abigail) was married in the summer and as we weren’t able to attend it was great to see the photos and hear all about the day. Our friendship with John & Amanda has always been special going right back to out time at Cliff College together in the 80s. We’ve shared so much over the years and always been able to be honest with each other – we’ve had a laugh, a cry, some wine and some reminiscing over the past 24 hours. Great therapy! We’re hoping to stop with them on Easter Sunday after my auntie’s Ruby wedding; looking forward to it already!
I can’t begin to tell you just how well I feel. In comparison to the first round of chemo I’ve had so much energy this time round. My swallowing remains normal, appetite is fine and the cold sensitivity side effects are lots better too. This is all good news. I really wasn’t expecting to feel this well at this stage. Thanks for your prayers and your National Insurance contributions that fund our wonderful NHS and my treatment.
Went to worship at Wootton New Life this morning, great service, loads of hearty singing and it was wonderful to break bread together at communion. We were looking at Jesus' living water. Ken, Mu, Jez, Teresa, John and Amanda prayed with me, anointed me with oil, and laid hands on me after the service; I really felt cared for and loved. The healing thing is hard. I know God can and does heal. Ken Chambers is evidence of this himself (feel free to tell your story as a comment below Ken!). Just because he can and does heal doesn’t mean he will definitely heal me. That’s not a lack of faith on my part rather a realisation that God’s heart is God’s heart and that his ways are not ours. I honestly don’t know what God has in store for me but I know his promise to walk with me through whatever. I have friends who are convinced I’ll be healed, others who don’t know and still more who don’t really believe in healing at all. The challenge is to live faithfully, positively and with integrity whatever happens.
During the coming week I’m in dissertation land; must get it finished if I can. I’ve loved doing my MA so much, not finishing it would be a shame. I’ve been studying ‘Contemporary Missiology’ how to do mission and be church in the modern world. I’ve found it fascinating from outset and although Teresa’s not so convinced she has supported me 100% and does a great job of proof reading all my tedious assignments. The dissertation needs to be 'in' by 31st March with graduation (all being well) on June 28th which is the day after my birthday. Please pray that I can concentrate, focus and get the blighter finished this week!
I pray you all have a great week, be good and once more thank-you with all my heart for walking on this journey with me. I would hate to be travelling alone.
God Bless. Dave
We’ve had a great weekend with our friends John & Amanda Stamp from Derby, their daughter (Abigail) was married in the summer and as we weren’t able to attend it was great to see the photos and hear all about the day. Our friendship with John & Amanda has always been special going right back to out time at Cliff College together in the 80s. We’ve shared so much over the years and always been able to be honest with each other – we’ve had a laugh, a cry, some wine and some reminiscing over the past 24 hours. Great therapy! We’re hoping to stop with them on Easter Sunday after my auntie’s Ruby wedding; looking forward to it already!
I can’t begin to tell you just how well I feel. In comparison to the first round of chemo I’ve had so much energy this time round. My swallowing remains normal, appetite is fine and the cold sensitivity side effects are lots better too. This is all good news. I really wasn’t expecting to feel this well at this stage. Thanks for your prayers and your National Insurance contributions that fund our wonderful NHS and my treatment.
Went to worship at Wootton New Life this morning, great service, loads of hearty singing and it was wonderful to break bread together at communion. We were looking at Jesus' living water. Ken, Mu, Jez, Teresa, John and Amanda prayed with me, anointed me with oil, and laid hands on me after the service; I really felt cared for and loved. The healing thing is hard. I know God can and does heal. Ken Chambers is evidence of this himself (feel free to tell your story as a comment below Ken!). Just because he can and does heal doesn’t mean he will definitely heal me. That’s not a lack of faith on my part rather a realisation that God’s heart is God’s heart and that his ways are not ours. I honestly don’t know what God has in store for me but I know his promise to walk with me through whatever. I have friends who are convinced I’ll be healed, others who don’t know and still more who don’t really believe in healing at all. The challenge is to live faithfully, positively and with integrity whatever happens.
During the coming week I’m in dissertation land; must get it finished if I can. I’ve loved doing my MA so much, not finishing it would be a shame. I’ve been studying ‘Contemporary Missiology’ how to do mission and be church in the modern world. I’ve found it fascinating from outset and although Teresa’s not so convinced she has supported me 100% and does a great job of proof reading all my tedious assignments. The dissertation needs to be 'in' by 31st March with graduation (all being well) on June 28th which is the day after my birthday. Please pray that I can concentrate, focus and get the blighter finished this week!
I pray you all have a great week, be good and once more thank-you with all my heart for walking on this journey with me. I would hate to be travelling alone.
God Bless. Dave
Friday, February 22, 2008
Feeling OK - Action Man Haircut
Hi Everyone,
I have felt so much better today than I did at this stage with the first chemo. The tablets keep the sickness at bay and I'm not falling asleep every five minutes. I'm feeling the cold still and get the odd spasm in my throat and hands but nothing too heavy. Mum and Dad continue to be a great help doing our weekly shop for us this afternoon and going to see Carys in her 'showing assembly' this morning. Chloe (bless her) has cleaned the house from top to bottom.
Teresa spoke to Amy yesterday who is struggling with all this at a distance, she also heard that her 'Matron of Honour' and James' best man can't make their wedding in October as they're skint. This is a real blow for them. I think for the first time she's feeling homesick. We do miss her.
Really looking forward to seeing our great friends Amanda & John Stamp tomorrow. We've shared a lot during the past 24 years having walked on very similar journeys with faith, family and business - it will be great to catch up with them. Also looking forward to breaking bread on Sunday with one thing or another I've not had communion for 4 months and that's too long.
Sorry to add another prayer request on the list but my cousin's partner (Rick) has recently been found to have a shadow on his lung. He works with asbestos and they've picked it up on a routine medical checkup. We hoping it's nothing but at the moment the whole of our small, close family is a little paranoid (as you might imagine). My cousin is called Liz and the kids are Freddie (6) and Robert (1) they live in Crich near Matlock, Derbyshire. Please pray that further tests happen quickly and amount to nothing.
The hair as finally gone! Teresa shaved it off as I was moulting everywhere and leaving a hairy pillow and bath each morning. I look like Action Man but without the physique or shifty eyes. Could have an NHS wig, think I'll pass. Or perhaps this is a good opportunity for a new look?
Hope you all have a good Friday evening and fun filled weekend.
God Bless
Dave
I have felt so much better today than I did at this stage with the first chemo. The tablets keep the sickness at bay and I'm not falling asleep every five minutes. I'm feeling the cold still and get the odd spasm in my throat and hands but nothing too heavy. Mum and Dad continue to be a great help doing our weekly shop for us this afternoon and going to see Carys in her 'showing assembly' this morning. Chloe (bless her) has cleaned the house from top to bottom.
Teresa spoke to Amy yesterday who is struggling with all this at a distance, she also heard that her 'Matron of Honour' and James' best man can't make their wedding in October as they're skint. This is a real blow for them. I think for the first time she's feeling homesick. We do miss her.
Really looking forward to seeing our great friends Amanda & John Stamp tomorrow. We've shared a lot during the past 24 years having walked on very similar journeys with faith, family and business - it will be great to catch up with them. Also looking forward to breaking bread on Sunday with one thing or another I've not had communion for 4 months and that's too long.
Sorry to add another prayer request on the list but my cousin's partner (Rick) has recently been found to have a shadow on his lung. He works with asbestos and they've picked it up on a routine medical checkup. We hoping it's nothing but at the moment the whole of our small, close family is a little paranoid (as you might imagine). My cousin is called Liz and the kids are Freddie (6) and Robert (1) they live in Crich near Matlock, Derbyshire. Please pray that further tests happen quickly and amount to nothing.
The hair as finally gone! Teresa shaved it off as I was moulting everywhere and leaving a hairy pillow and bath each morning. I look like Action Man but without the physique or shifty eyes. Could have an NHS wig, think I'll pass. Or perhaps this is a good opportunity for a new look?
Hope you all have a good Friday evening and fun filled weekend.
God Bless
Dave
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Yawn, Snooze, Piddle, Snoozzzzzz
Hello lovely 'Blog Community'...
Well guys, sleep glands and bladder gone into overdrive once more. Slept most of the morning and again this evening; managed a little food of the soup variety. Mum and Dad and Chloe are looking after me very well as Teresa's (a.k.a. Florence Nightingale) is working today. The hardest day tends to be day 3 (tomorrow) and then after that you begin to feel better. Looking forward to seeing our old mates John & Amanda Stamp from Derbyshire over the weekend.
The list of pills is getting madder. At the moment I'm taking:
Prescription:
Domperidone - for nausea and sickness: 4 times a day.
Cyclizine - for severe nausea and sleep: 1 a day
Dexamethasone - steriod: once a day
Codeine Phosphate - for pain and the squits: 4 a day
Capecitabine - chemotherapy via tablet: 8 a day
Co-diovan - for blood pressure: 1 a day
Lansoprazole - for indegestion: 1 a day
Cipralex - for the brain: 1 a day
Non prescription but cleared as OK by the oncologist (tracked down by Florence on the web):
B17 Bitter Apricot Kernels - packed full of cyanide but brill - snake oil I reckon!
Ellagic Acid - something to do with fighting radicals or something??
Mega EPA 1000 Fish Oil - Yuk - green torpedos of hell!
Life Essence Multi Nutrient - Yuk - green elephant pills!
Alkaline PH Booster - added to water
As with Chemo round #1 I've got the sensitivity to cold again but have managed a further strange symptom of a florrid red face. Look like Mr Percy Snotgrass from Oliver! - the one who'd secretly buy it, drink it on the quiet and dream he was an earl with a girl on each knee. Sadly no great desire to have a girl on knee - things seem to gone into hibernation in that area of life. Too much self disclosure here perhaps? I've gone beyond the edge of the envelope again haven't I?
Seem to have spawned a debate re Buddhism and Christianity on the old blogaroonie. I am honoured, blessed and touched that those of other faiths are praying and meditating for me - I've some wonderful friends of all persuasions. It's no secret that I've found truth in Jesus and His teachings and it is great that His teachings have impacted the world far beyond those who choose to specifically follow Him. Wherever there are people thinking, praying and meditating for those in need there is Jesus' heart. Many Christians would find peace in a Buddhist temple, Gudwara, Mosque or Synagogue. We can hold passionately our beliefs and even seek to share them with others as truth whilst respecting, honouring and defending the rights and beliefs of others. I can't think of anything more wonderful than a Buddist finding peace and tranqulity in Wesley's chapel. John Wesley at his conversion said that he felt his heart 'strangley warmed' by God and his presence... we all need some heart warming don't we?
Personally I couldn't imagine walking through this without Jesus by my side or without the support of my wonderful faith community and friends. It's at times like this that your faith is tested, really comes into play, I pray that I'll be found to be strong in Him. It's at times like this that you discover so many people care for you and love you.
Am I preaching again? Probably!
Anyway thanks again my support troops; you are all my heroes, keep praying, meditating and visualising the little blighter GOING!
God Bless, sleep tight and if you're struggling to sleep I'll email you a Cyclizine. Hope you hearts all all warmed as you sleep.
Luv Dave xxx
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Chemo #2
Hi Guys
Went for my second chemo today, went in feeling very well came out feeling not so well. Cold sensitivity started again straight away and feel sicker this time; was sick in the car on the way home but mum had a bag filtched from a ferry. The nasty stuff went in a lot easier with the PIC line, no pain at all which was much better. Pink wee and itchy 'crown jewels' again.
Going to get some rest now. My parent have come down from Derby on a mercy dash to mop my brow and feed the kids.
I will try and blog more tomorrow.
See ya
Dave
Went for my second chemo today, went in feeling very well came out feeling not so well. Cold sensitivity started again straight away and feel sicker this time; was sick in the car on the way home but mum had a bag filtched from a ferry. The nasty stuff went in a lot easier with the PIC line, no pain at all which was much better. Pink wee and itchy 'crown jewels' again.
Going to get some rest now. My parent have come down from Derby on a mercy dash to mop my brow and feed the kids.
I will try and blog more tomorrow.
See ya
Dave
PIC In & Psalm 139
Hi Guys
Sorry I didn’t get to post last night, by the time I got back from the church youth group it was a bit late. Last night the kids had asked to look at ‘Insecurities & Angst’ – we based it around Psalm 139:
1O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5You hem me in--behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
All good stuff!
I had the PIC line fitted yesterday. It was pretty straightforward really and doesn’t bother me at all. They insert it in the crook of you arm (right for me) and then feed it up a main artery into some valve near your heart. Didn’t feel it going in. An X ray confirms if it is in the right place and then they fit a valve on the end so that you don’t leak too much!
Off for chemo today at 11.30, Teresa’s (my little Florence Nightingale) is taking me and my mum and dad are picking me up – bless em.
Hopefully I’ll be in a fit state to post tonight.
Have a good day; I’ll be sitting down all day – beats work!
Luv ya Dave
Sorry I didn’t get to post last night, by the time I got back from the church youth group it was a bit late. Last night the kids had asked to look at ‘Insecurities & Angst’ – we based it around Psalm 139:
1O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.
5You hem me in--behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
All good stuff!
I had the PIC line fitted yesterday. It was pretty straightforward really and doesn’t bother me at all. They insert it in the crook of you arm (right for me) and then feed it up a main artery into some valve near your heart. Didn’t feel it going in. An X ray confirms if it is in the right place and then they fit a valve on the end so that you don’t leak too much!
Off for chemo today at 11.30, Teresa’s (my little Florence Nightingale) is taking me and my mum and dad are picking me up – bless em.
Hopefully I’ll be in a fit state to post tonight.
Have a good day; I’ll be sitting down all day – beats work!
Luv ya Dave
Monday, February 18, 2008
Good News & Answered Prayers
Had a really good appointment with the oncologist today. He is really pleased with my progress, the swallowing is normal and my bloods were strong which means I’m responding very well to the chemo! Can’t tell you what positive news this is; thank-you prayer team and the NHS! After a couple of ‘heavy’ appointments it was great to hear good news today. I have unfortunately managed to pick up an infection in my gums (for which I have antibiotics) and thrush (for which I have tablets); I have lost track of the amount pills I’m taking now. I think its about 8 separate prescriptions. I'm certainly getting my monies worth from ny National Insurance contributions.
Mu Chambers (leader at Wootton New Life) was telling me that 7 different churches were represented at the prayer meeting for me yesterday. Thank you so much for your faithfulness; the prayer is working!
My cousin and auntie are here today from Derbyshire which is great; I’ve cooked a massive spread for when Teresa gets home from Kip McGrath later. Beef stew and dumplings followed by rhubarb and raspberry crumble and custard; just the job for a cold night.
I have my PIC line fitted on Tuesday at 9.00 and the kids are paying a visit to the Primrose Oncology unit to see where daddy is spending so much of his time. I’ll let you know how it goes.
My post might be a little later tomorrow as I’m off to the Church youth group (XLR8) to help lead the evening we are looking at teenage insecurities and angst. If anyone knows of a similar evening for mid life insecurities and angst let me know and I’ll sign up!
Well all my lovely guests have got out of the hot tub now so the kitchen beckons; time to do my Jamie Oliver…..
See ya
Irritatingly Perky Dave!
Mu Chambers (leader at Wootton New Life) was telling me that 7 different churches were represented at the prayer meeting for me yesterday. Thank you so much for your faithfulness; the prayer is working!
My cousin and auntie are here today from Derbyshire which is great; I’ve cooked a massive spread for when Teresa gets home from Kip McGrath later. Beef stew and dumplings followed by rhubarb and raspberry crumble and custard; just the job for a cold night.
I have my PIC line fitted on Tuesday at 9.00 and the kids are paying a visit to the Primrose Oncology unit to see where daddy is spending so much of his time. I’ll let you know how it goes.
My post might be a little later tomorrow as I’m off to the Church youth group (XLR8) to help lead the evening we are looking at teenage insecurities and angst. If anyone knows of a similar evening for mid life insecurities and angst let me know and I’ll sign up!
Well all my lovely guests have got out of the hot tub now so the kitchen beckons; time to do my Jamie Oliver…..
See ya
Irritatingly Perky Dave!
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Back Home Again!
Hi Everyone,
We set off from the cottage yesterday at 5.30 p.m. for the drive up to St Malo which takes about two hours. Normally you have to wait to board until about 11.30 but yesterday they started the process at 7.00 and let you on as you arrived. We had a great cabin with proper beds, TV and a mini-bar! We had a fantastic meal in the posh restaurant, a game of Rummikub with Carys (who's a bit obsessed) and then even managed a few episodes of 24 before bed. We even had a very civilized breakfast in our room before hitting the motorway back hoime. We were hoping to get to church for at least part of the service but the ferry was a little late and James' bus back from Heathrow didn't arrive until 1.45 (1 hour 30 minutes late). The church met after the main service to pray for me again - bless em! We went over to the pub opposite our house and I ate a full roast dinner with no problem at all. The great news is that eating is 100% normal at the moment - brill.
Poor old James is beat with jet lag and is fast asleep on the sofa. He woke up momentarily to shout 'where are my skis' before searching the room for them - sort of a sleep walking thingy. We led him back to the sofa to resume the snooze. It sounds as though he had a really great time in snowy Colorado.
We had an amazing holiday in France, we didn't see a single cloud in the sky for 7 days. We really enjoyed ourselves and are already looking forward to going back at Easter with everyone and Rosie Dog. We have inherited a mouse in the house who introduced himself to Teresa with classic French charm in the middle of the night in the kitchen, he lives under the dishwasher - but not for long!!
Really looking forward to seeing my Auntie Joy (from Ambergate) and cousin Julia who are paying a visit tomorrow and stopping over till Tuesday.
Loads of appointments this week; tomorrow with the Oncologist at 3.15 p.m. He's recently been to an international conference of Oncologists in Orlando (why always somewhere hot and never Scunthorpe?) and was going to be on the look-out for new treatments and trials for me. On Tuesday the PIC line is fitted and then chemo round 2 on Wednesday. Bring it on; it (and the prayer) are working!
It's good to be back home with James & Chloe and we're enjoying 'Dancing On Ice' even as I type. I'll let you know what Dr Belusu says tomorrow and try and post some more pictures too. Seems strange to be starting another week not at work, can't imagine what it must be like if you have to face all this and carry on working.
Thanks to all those reading the blog and posting comments; sorry if I don't respond to each one personally. Thanks to Linda & Ralph (my parent's neighbours in Littleover, Derby) who are printing it off for my mum & dad who aren't silver surfers (yet!). Once more thank you for your prayers. We know of people all over the world giving the Lord an ear bashing on my behalf. We're hearing about all sorts of good stuff coming out of this already. People are talking who'd fallen out, we've made contact with friends with haven't spoken to in years and folk are going to church who had been on a bit of a 'spiritual career break'. God is so good at the redemption thing, bringing good stuff out of bad circumstances. Think what glory my healing will give him!
Better sign-off and get back to 'Dancing On Ice'. Don't you just love Jason???
See ya... Dave
Friday, February 15, 2008
Great Day In Benodet - Teresa posted earlier too!
Hi guys
Hear the weather has taken a turn for the worse in England...shall I rub it in?? Weather still gorgeous here -relentless blue skies and sunshine. Went to Benodet as planned - it really is the most beautiful place. Had lunch at great little creperie, which was wonderful - and then guess who slept on the beach for an hour?? My wife again!! Carys collected shells and I watched the world go by (ok and snoozed a bit myself!) and then we went for a walk around the coastal path before doing a bit more shopping (can Teresa spend any more money?) ((Suzy (friend and accountant) if you're reading this it's all a vicious lie -from Teresa)).
Can't believe we're heading home tomorrow though we're back again at Easter and I'm slipping in a sneaky extra trip between now and then (assuming I'm up to it) with my mum and dad to hang out with them a bit and do a bit of work on the house for a few days. Might as well while I feel I can.
As far as I'm concerned if you're going to be tired and sickly you might as well do it here!!
Catching the overnight ferry from St Malo tomorrow night to Portsmouth - won't get chance to blog tomorrow so will catch up with you all on Sunday night from home. Going to call in at church on the way home. As well as loads of on-going prayer these wonderful people are meeting once a month after the service to pray for me specifically (organised by Ken & Mu - bless them). What heroes! This is probably the best church in the world. Certainly reaches the parts other churches do not reach!
Hope you all have a great weekend. Take care
Luv Dave
Hear the weather has taken a turn for the worse in England...shall I rub it in?? Weather still gorgeous here -relentless blue skies and sunshine. Went to Benodet as planned - it really is the most beautiful place. Had lunch at great little creperie, which was wonderful - and then guess who slept on the beach for an hour?? My wife again!! Carys collected shells and I watched the world go by (ok and snoozed a bit myself!) and then we went for a walk around the coastal path before doing a bit more shopping (can Teresa spend any more money?) ((Suzy (friend and accountant) if you're reading this it's all a vicious lie -from Teresa)).
Can't believe we're heading home tomorrow though we're back again at Easter and I'm slipping in a sneaky extra trip between now and then (assuming I'm up to it) with my mum and dad to hang out with them a bit and do a bit of work on the house for a few days. Might as well while I feel I can.
As far as I'm concerned if you're going to be tired and sickly you might as well do it here!!
Catching the overnight ferry from St Malo tomorrow night to Portsmouth - won't get chance to blog tomorrow so will catch up with you all on Sunday night from home. Going to call in at church on the way home. As well as loads of on-going prayer these wonderful people are meeting once a month after the service to pray for me specifically (organised by Ken & Mu - bless them). What heroes! This is probably the best church in the world. Certainly reaches the parts other churches do not reach!
Hope you all have a great weekend. Take care
Luv Dave
A Few Thoughts From Teresa..
Woke up this morning and had the sensation that God was instantly speaking to me and felt I had to capture it.
We’ve had (and are having) a wonderful week in France. It’s been wonderful and relaxing and peaceful – lots of sunshine and rest and too much good food!!
Although I don’t know what the next few weeks or months will bring I know it may be difficult to bear. I may have to watch my husband and my family suffer as we go through this process. But God is with us. He walks with us through it and he wants to teach us so much through it. The way that God refines us is with fire. Fire burns, it hurts, it’s unbearable at times. The purpose of the fire is that when we are in the midst of it it brings all the dross to the surface and it evaporates in the heat, leaving something more pure in its place, more beautiful.
A couple of weeks ago during the worship at church I had a picture. I had just blown up a large red balloon, giving all my energy in blowing it up, only to see it pop and explode in an instant. Our lives can change in a heartbeat, and I wonder what we are left with when that happens. The thing that struck me about that picture is that, no matter how hard you try, you can’t ever put that balloon back together again.
When we go through suffering hopefully we draw near to God. In his presence we become acutely aware of all the stuff in our lives which is useless, or sinful, or just plain ugly. These things that we ‘coat’ ourselves with suddenly become almost repulsive to us. We are appalled by the status we have given them. They are meaningless – dross, and they shouldn’t have any part in our lives.
When we go through difficult times what becomes important is, to quote the film, Love, Actually. That’s all. Love in all its forms. It’s such a powerful force and it can ‘overcome all things’ even death. That’s the simple truth. We don't 'lose' love even though we may lose some of the things or the people that we love. We can't hold on to anything or any person forever, but we can love them forever. It's eternal.
The fire changes us. It should change us. I need to change. I don’t like the person I was. I want to be a ‘purer’ reflection of my maker.
A few weeks ago I woke from a dream that had lasted through Christmas and New Year and found myself sitting alone in the lovely little chapel at Addenbrookes, praying for David as he had his laproscopy.
I began to sob as I suddenly realised how all our lives had been turned upside down and would probably never be the same again.
A lovely lady, one of the chaplains came and prayed with me that day. She spoke words of grace and comfort. She didn’t say much about herself except that her life had been touched by cancer and that she now spent much of her life counselling families where a child had been diagnosed with cancer. The fire had changed her, had made her alter her priorities, her life. I hope and pray that whatever the challenges ahead, that I will be altered and be given opportunities to demonstrate God’s grace and love.
Thanks for all your support. Love Teresa.
We’ve had (and are having) a wonderful week in France. It’s been wonderful and relaxing and peaceful – lots of sunshine and rest and too much good food!!
Although I don’t know what the next few weeks or months will bring I know it may be difficult to bear. I may have to watch my husband and my family suffer as we go through this process. But God is with us. He walks with us through it and he wants to teach us so much through it. The way that God refines us is with fire. Fire burns, it hurts, it’s unbearable at times. The purpose of the fire is that when we are in the midst of it it brings all the dross to the surface and it evaporates in the heat, leaving something more pure in its place, more beautiful.
A couple of weeks ago during the worship at church I had a picture. I had just blown up a large red balloon, giving all my energy in blowing it up, only to see it pop and explode in an instant. Our lives can change in a heartbeat, and I wonder what we are left with when that happens. The thing that struck me about that picture is that, no matter how hard you try, you can’t ever put that balloon back together again.
When we go through suffering hopefully we draw near to God. In his presence we become acutely aware of all the stuff in our lives which is useless, or sinful, or just plain ugly. These things that we ‘coat’ ourselves with suddenly become almost repulsive to us. We are appalled by the status we have given them. They are meaningless – dross, and they shouldn’t have any part in our lives.
When we go through difficult times what becomes important is, to quote the film, Love, Actually. That’s all. Love in all its forms. It’s such a powerful force and it can ‘overcome all things’ even death. That’s the simple truth. We don't 'lose' love even though we may lose some of the things or the people that we love. We can't hold on to anything or any person forever, but we can love them forever. It's eternal.
The fire changes us. It should change us. I need to change. I don’t like the person I was. I want to be a ‘purer’ reflection of my maker.
A few weeks ago I woke from a dream that had lasted through Christmas and New Year and found myself sitting alone in the lovely little chapel at Addenbrookes, praying for David as he had his laproscopy.
I began to sob as I suddenly realised how all our lives had been turned upside down and would probably never be the same again.
A lovely lady, one of the chaplains came and prayed with me that day. She spoke words of grace and comfort. She didn’t say much about herself except that her life had been touched by cancer and that she now spent much of her life counselling families where a child had been diagnosed with cancer. The fire had changed her, had made her alter her priorities, her life. I hope and pray that whatever the challenges ahead, that I will be altered and be given opportunities to demonstrate God’s grace and love.
Thanks for all your support. Love Teresa.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Dumplings 'n' Stuff
To be honest guys not a lot to report today. Spent the morning doing lots of fiddly little DIY jobs around the cottage. It being St Valentine's Day my lovely wife gave me a very touching card this morning. Sadly mine for her is at home in the piano stool where I hid it before coming on holiday.
My gorgeous wife then spent 2 hrs sleeping this afternoon after having made a gargantuan lunch replete with dumplings (the lunch that is as well as the wife!).
Taught Carys the addictive Rummikub this afternoon and then we all went for a walk through the woods which surround the cottage called 'Foret de Coatloc'h. Yet another glorious day here - blue skies and sunshine yet again - thankyou Lord!
Planning a night of more games and TV -it's a hard life. Continue to feel really well and still got my barnet. Even managed to put weight on (it's the dumplings!).
Off to Benodet tomorrow to hob nob with the beautiful people. Sign in tomorrow for more thrilling installments!!
To end - small joke from Carys...Why did the chicken cross the park...to get to the other slide!
My gorgeous wife then spent 2 hrs sleeping this afternoon after having made a gargantuan lunch replete with dumplings (the lunch that is as well as the wife!).
Taught Carys the addictive Rummikub this afternoon and then we all went for a walk through the woods which surround the cottage called 'Foret de Coatloc'h. Yet another glorious day here - blue skies and sunshine yet again - thankyou Lord!
Planning a night of more games and TV -it's a hard life. Continue to feel really well and still got my barnet. Even managed to put weight on (it's the dumplings!).
Off to Benodet tomorrow to hob nob with the beautiful people. Sign in tomorrow for more thrilling installments!!
To end - small joke from Carys...Why did the chicken cross the park...to get to the other slide!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
'Fessing Up'
Time to 'fess-up'. I had my first serious blubber last night. Until last night I'd held it all in. It's being here. Worked my way through half a box of Kleenex. We love this cottage so much and had so many hopes and plans for the future. We were going to retire here, bring our grandkids here, share it with our family and mates. This may not happen now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still hoping and praying for a miracle but that's in God's hands. It's up to him. It might not happen. I don't subscribe to the school that teaches that any doubt on my part will 'lose me the miracle'. Fortunately the Bible says you only need faith the size of a mustard seed to move a mountain. Mustard seeds I can do. It is difficult to stay positive when all the medical folk (who are heroes) don't hold out any hope for the long term. Talk to them about timescales and they talk about averages. The average life expectancy on chemo is 9-12 months with this particular cancer. I should manage longer because I'm young and fit. No one talks about me getting better. I want to confound everyone by going into full remission through chemo and prayer alone. Don't worry I'm not miserable, infact the crying did me good, felt peaceful (if not a little dehydrated - slobber, slobber) afterwards. As my dad always says 'better out than in', he's talking about flatulence - but the same principle applies surely???
We had a lovely day today in Concarneau, it really is a beautiful town. The photo is the tiny chapel we always visit here. We pay a call every holiday, light a candle, ask for God's blessing. It's right on the sea front overlooking the bay and very peaceful. The weather was, once more fantastic; not a cloud in the sky and about 16C. We had a great lunch in lieu of Valentines Day at our favourite eatery 'Le Clos Minuaet' near Tregunc - a restaurant we can recommend if you ever stop here.
Didn't get onto '24' last night, got caught up with a documentary about Jelly Fish. Got some catching up to do....
No sign of hair loss. All bits in tact. Swallowing is, once more, back to normal and infact I'm feeling really well nearly six weeks since diagnosis.
Have a great evening and a fantastic Thursday.
Luv Dave.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Another Beautiful Day
The weather is just fantastic at the moment; another day of blue cloudless skies and sunshine. I spent the morning in the garden. We hunted for a cottage with as small a garden as possible, most French houses come with a lake, 3 acres and a ruined chateau whether you like it or not. My idea of a holiday is most certainly not racing round on a 'sit-on' mower. Don't get me wrong; I like boy toys. I have a chainsaw; macho eh? Teresa begins a time of concerted intercession everytime I rev. it up. To be honest most of our logs are purchased at the local supermarche.We went down to the beach this afternoon and a walk up to the cliffs - beautiful. Had a pray up there. Asked Father God to heal me again. Come on Lord, do your stuff! Breathed in the ozone and reminded ourselves just how much we love Brittany. Headed home via Pont Aven which is always perfect. The town was the home of Gaugin famous for his picture of the 'Yellow Christ'.
Managed to find a great game in the local supermarche that my parents introduced to us at Center Parcs caled 'Rummikub'. Couldn't find it in England only problem is the rules are in French so...'Vous pouvez diviser ou agrandir une serie ou que sequence contenant un joker, pour reconstituer des combinaisons nouvelles' - simple really. Due for a monopoly re-match with Carys tonight followed by 24. Any other Jack Bauer fans out there? We're on episodes 5,6 & 7 of series 5 tonight - so addictive!Healthwise last night was not too good, was sick and felt 'odd'. Today's been much better. Starting to worry about next week's chemo but should be easier with the PIC line. Still have 100% of my hair and nails (due to fall out tomorrow according to a fellow sufferers blog). Will let you know if I look like Kojak and suddenly fancy a lolipop. If I fancy Kojak and look like a lolipop I'll keep that to myself.
Planning a trip to Concarneau tomorrow and we'll visit our little chapel there and light a candle.
Have a great evening
Dave
Monday, February 11, 2008
NEWSFLASH - French Economy BOOOOMS
Well, shopping trip over. Party started in Quimper as we left and a national holiday has been called in celebration of a suprise (retail led) upturn in the French economy. Spent an amount equivalent to the GDP of a minor Baltic state. Seriously, we shopped like there's no tomorrow and then when we realized there might not be, carried on anyway! The weather has been glorious here today, bright blue skys, no wind & 15C; perfect. We sat out and drank coffee at a little cafe complete with rude waitress - how French is that. Had a bit of an odd moment when a French gentleman (a little the worse for wear) introduced himself and told us a very risque 'English' joke. The jist was that the English prefer a cup of tea to a ****! Of course he's right and I was drinking tea at the time. The alternative of a **** wouldn't have been appropriate in a public place (even in France with my life expectancy). I'm under caution from Teresa now in case little children are reading this blog in which case ****! is chocolate.
The picture above is the back garden at the cottage which we created single handedly last Easter in a 'Groundforce Special' - sadly no Charlie in attendence. Tomorrow is 'gardening and jobs round the house day' punctuated with sleep, food and a little vin.
Multivarious blessing to all in this 'blog community' - how very postmodern of me.
Luv ya
Dave xxx
Morning Post Too - Must Be On Holiday
Two posts in 12 hours - what am I? On holiday or something??
Off shopping to Qumiper (pronounced Com-pare), Carys has her E10 note clutched in her sweaty mit and a a glazed shopping look (inherited from her mum) in her eyes. I'm hiding the credit card and feeling tense.
If you're praying, the old swallowing is not quite as good as it was - getting ready for the next dose of the nasty stuff next Wednesday I expect.
I'll let you know about the shopping trip later.
By the way 'Ty Carys' is our cotttage here it means 'House of Grace' in Bretton (which they speak around here as well as French). If any friends fancy a free break you're welcome, when I say 'free' you'd have to mow the lawn (size of a postage stamp) and water the plants and pay for your own ferries/flights but the cottage would be free! All mod cons are included!! We're here during school holidays but other than that we love it being used - just ask. Very do-able for a weekend flying out on Friday from Birmingham.
Luv ya. Dave. XXX
Luv ya. Dave
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Bonjour
So yesterday was mad! I dropped James off at school so he could go to Aspen skiing and then went home to pack so we could go to France. We left home at 8.00 p.m. and caught the 11.45 p.m. ferry from Portsmouth to Caen. We got into Caen at 7.30 French time (6.30 in the UK). We had a fantastic drive down to our cottage. It’s been a beautiful day, blue sky, sunshine and as always in France hardly a car on the road! It takes about 4 hours from Caen to Loge Gaor. If you’re looking for us on a map or Google we are just north of Pont Aven on the south coast of Brittany between the towns of Scaer and Bannalec. We had lunch out and then spent the afternoon toasting our toes next to the stove and playing Monopoly with Carys.
It’s great to be here, we’ve always loved this part of France and have had firstly the mobile home and now the cottage for 6 years. We relax the moment we arrive; we are really hoping we’ll manage loads more breaks here and that health won’t hinder us too much over the summer. We don’t do much apart from fires, tv and walks on the beach. Just the job! We were a little worried because we had had some work done on the roof and were concerned as always that it might not have been done (or left half done). No probs, all finished; we take it all back!
My health continues to be remarkably good, no tiredness, no sickness and I’m eating normally(ish) even managing pain-au-chocolate and baguette! Four weeks ago I was struggling with liquids. Real progress; the tumour must be shrinking: YES!!
I’ll try and blog each night. Thank-you so much for your prayer support – just after my first chemo we were concerned we might not make it – it means the world to us to be here; it’s our haven and we love it so much.
God bless. Hope you had great weekends.
Luv
Dave
It’s great to be here, we’ve always loved this part of France and have had firstly the mobile home and now the cottage for 6 years. We relax the moment we arrive; we are really hoping we’ll manage loads more breaks here and that health won’t hinder us too much over the summer. We don’t do much apart from fires, tv and walks on the beach. Just the job! We were a little worried because we had had some work done on the roof and were concerned as always that it might not have been done (or left half done). No probs, all finished; we take it all back!
My health continues to be remarkably good, no tiredness, no sickness and I’m eating normally(ish) even managing pain-au-chocolate and baguette! Four weeks ago I was struggling with liquids. Real progress; the tumour must be shrinking: YES!!
I’ll try and blog each night. Thank-you so much for your prayer support – just after my first chemo we were concerned we might not make it – it means the world to us to be here; it’s our haven and we love it so much.
God bless. Hope you had great weekends.
Luv
Dave
Friday, February 8, 2008
5 Weeks In & OK!
Hi Guys
Well I got the diagnosis 5 weeks ago today and I feel better than I have in months. I'm eating normally. No longer tired, no discomfort or pain. Now I know that after France I've got the dreaded chemo again but it (and prayer) is working so I'll settle for 1 crappy week out of three.
We had a brill night out with our friends Dawn & Richard last night - great meal, loads of laughs - some wine! Tonight (Friday) is the first night I've had in since Monday and I went to bed at 7.00 then. Must try and stay awake for Teresa's sake - it is Friday after all!
James is off to Aspen and we're off to France tomorrow so no post tomorrow but I'll report in from Brittany on Sunday night.
See ya Dave xxxx
Well I got the diagnosis 5 weeks ago today and I feel better than I have in months. I'm eating normally. No longer tired, no discomfort or pain. Now I know that after France I've got the dreaded chemo again but it (and prayer) is working so I'll settle for 1 crappy week out of three.
We had a brill night out with our friends Dawn & Richard last night - great meal, loads of laughs - some wine! Tonight (Friday) is the first night I've had in since Monday and I went to bed at 7.00 then. Must try and stay awake for Teresa's sake - it is Friday after all!
James is off to Aspen and we're off to France tomorrow so no post tomorrow but I'll report in from Brittany on Sunday night.
See ya Dave xxxx
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Man Flu Too!
All that prayer and positive thought in my direction is reaping rewards! I feeling so well at present, eating is normal, tiredness has gone, don’t feel sick. In fact I have more symptoms from the ‘man flu’ I’ve caught than the cancer. All the chemo side effects have gone now too.
We had a great night at our friends Nick & Sarah last night – had a great laugh. They bought me two cool beanies (trendy skull caps like wot Enrique wears); so I’ll be ready when the daily ‘tug test’ yields in a handful of hair! Poor old Nick & Sarah – they were the first place we headed when I got the original diagnosis and after the ‘no hope’ consultation. It was a relief for them to see us without any news, they’re joining us on holiday in the summer – at least I won’t have to diet or trim chest hair this year (yep vain old Dave does both – what a wuss!).
I was able to lay down 2,000 words on the old dissertation this morning working with Teresa in the office – great to be with her 24/7; one of a number of positives to come out of this mess.
We are seeing our mates Dawn & Richard Bauling tonight in Sharnbrook which will be great – not seen them in ages.
Keep praying guys, it (the prayer) and the fantastic attentions of the NHS’s chemo mixing dept. are working wonders!
We had a great night at our friends Nick & Sarah last night – had a great laugh. They bought me two cool beanies (trendy skull caps like wot Enrique wears); so I’ll be ready when the daily ‘tug test’ yields in a handful of hair! Poor old Nick & Sarah – they were the first place we headed when I got the original diagnosis and after the ‘no hope’ consultation. It was a relief for them to see us without any news, they’re joining us on holiday in the summer – at least I won’t have to diet or trim chest hair this year (yep vain old Dave does both – what a wuss!).
I was able to lay down 2,000 words on the old dissertation this morning working with Teresa in the office – great to be with her 24/7; one of a number of positives to come out of this mess.
We are seeing our mates Dawn & Richard Bauling tonight in Sharnbrook which will be great – not seen them in ages.
Keep praying guys, it (the prayer) and the fantastic attentions of the NHS’s chemo mixing dept. are working wonders!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Family Photos - did a normal post too earlier!!!
Pictures from the top:
Carys - our youngest; she's 7.
The whole gang on the harbour at Concarneau in Brittany near to where the cottage is.
Chloe our mad and much loved Scottish Au Pair, great friend and general bottlewasher.
James - he's the middle one and now 12. The one on the left is Rosie our Boarder Terrier.
Finally Amy (19) and her husband-to-be James from Aussie who were home for Christmas.
What Cancer Cannot Do! (Much really!)
Made it to the youth Group Pancake Party! Even (wait for it) managed a glass of wine when I got home – this was the first time I’ve fancied a drink in two weeks. Must confess that a lack of desire for a glass of vino was one of the most worrying symptoms…he, he..
I mentioned yesterday a great little book I’d been sent by the guys at ‘Word of Life’ Church Great Barford called ‘What Cancer Cannot Do’. It’s brill. When it arrived I thought ‘Oh no, here goes death by a thousand cuts by Patience Strong’. I was wrong. No platitudes, just lots of stories of hope and encouragement. The chapter headings are:
Cancer is so limited…
It cannot cripple Love
It cannot shatter Hope
It cannot corrode Faith
It cannot kill Friendship
It cannot suppress Memories
It cannot silence Courage
It cannot invade the Soul
It cannot steal eternal Life
It cannot conquer the Spirit
All this is spot on. Since this little nasty was diagnosed we have felt more loved by friends and family than ever, since that point our faith in God and hope for a future have grown, we have seen friendships restored with those we love but had drifted apart from. We have realised that we have been so blessed in the past with a great marriage and fantastic kids, we hope we can continue to be brave, our souls are strong, we are 100% certain that God has a home for us after this life no matter what and feel the presence of the Holy Spirit each day.
If the worse cancer can do is kill you and death is defeated in Jesus then it is really VERY limited and so can bog off to where it came from.
Oops – once a preacher, always a preacher. Must behave!
Life does, must, and should go on regardless of a daft disease.
Health wise – feeling very well this morning – 48 hours now without chemo injections and the tablets. The nasty (but good for me) stuff must be working its way through my system. We are really looking forward to a week at the cottage in France for half term with little Carys. James is starting to get excited about his week in Denver with school – he’s practicing his skiing at the indoor snow dome in Milton Keynes each Thursday and hasn’t broken anything yet.
See ya all...
I mentioned yesterday a great little book I’d been sent by the guys at ‘Word of Life’ Church Great Barford called ‘What Cancer Cannot Do’. It’s brill. When it arrived I thought ‘Oh no, here goes death by a thousand cuts by Patience Strong’. I was wrong. No platitudes, just lots of stories of hope and encouragement. The chapter headings are:
Cancer is so limited…
It cannot cripple Love
It cannot shatter Hope
It cannot corrode Faith
It cannot kill Friendship
It cannot suppress Memories
It cannot silence Courage
It cannot invade the Soul
It cannot steal eternal Life
It cannot conquer the Spirit
All this is spot on. Since this little nasty was diagnosed we have felt more loved by friends and family than ever, since that point our faith in God and hope for a future have grown, we have seen friendships restored with those we love but had drifted apart from. We have realised that we have been so blessed in the past with a great marriage and fantastic kids, we hope we can continue to be brave, our souls are strong, we are 100% certain that God has a home for us after this life no matter what and feel the presence of the Holy Spirit each day.
If the worse cancer can do is kill you and death is defeated in Jesus then it is really VERY limited and so can bog off to where it came from.
Oops – once a preacher, always a preacher. Must behave!
Life does, must, and should go on regardless of a daft disease.
Health wise – feeling very well this morning – 48 hours now without chemo injections and the tablets. The nasty (but good for me) stuff must be working its way through my system. We are really looking forward to a week at the cottage in France for half term with little Carys. James is starting to get excited about his week in Denver with school – he’s practicing his skiing at the indoor snow dome in Milton Keynes each Thursday and hasn’t broken anything yet.
See ya all...
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Do You Know The Muffin Man? It's ME!
Unbelievable – actually managed to eat English muffins for breakfast, pizza at lunchtime and curry tonight! I needed a glass of water but no choking, spluttering or gagging. This is really encouraging because my next scan is not until 25th March and in the meantime the doctors have said that they’ll use symptoms to monitor progress. As swallowing difficulties are my only symptom this bodes well! Also today has been the first day I’ve not felt like ‘hitting the sack’ at by 6.00 p.m. so should make it to the youth group’s pancake party (and might even manage a pancake).
Seriously the week following the intravenous stuff was harder than I expected, the tiredness is the strangest thing for someone who normally managed on 5 hours a night. It’s now 12 hours every night and a few more during the day if poss. I have resisted the strange allure of peasanty day time TV (so far!).
I went to see Clarrissa Robinson yesterday. She is a professional councillor I visited a year or two back during a ‘wobbly patch’ (stress related). She specialises in counselling the ill and works a lot with a local hospice, she’s also been through cancer herself. She’s a fantastic listener; it helps me a lot.
Had some great chats with friends tonight Rachel Chiou, Stuart Simms and Nick Hearn . Rachel and Tony popped in this afternoon but I had nipped out to help Teresa at the office with some new computers for the tutoring so missed them.
Today has been the first day on no chemo tablets, I must admit I’m looking forward to a week off.
In signing off I was sent a great book by the folks at ‘Word of Life' Church Great Barford. It’s called ‘What Cancer Cannot Do’… I’ll highlight some of the chapter headings tomorrow.
God Bless. Pancakes here I come.
Seriously the week following the intravenous stuff was harder than I expected, the tiredness is the strangest thing for someone who normally managed on 5 hours a night. It’s now 12 hours every night and a few more during the day if poss. I have resisted the strange allure of peasanty day time TV (so far!).
I went to see Clarrissa Robinson yesterday. She is a professional councillor I visited a year or two back during a ‘wobbly patch’ (stress related). She specialises in counselling the ill and works a lot with a local hospice, she’s also been through cancer herself. She’s a fantastic listener; it helps me a lot.
Had some great chats with friends tonight Rachel Chiou, Stuart Simms and Nick Hearn . Rachel and Tony popped in this afternoon but I had nipped out to help Teresa at the office with some new computers for the tutoring so missed them.
Today has been the first day on no chemo tablets, I must admit I’m looking forward to a week off.
In signing off I was sent a great book by the folks at ‘Word of Life' Church Great Barford. It’s called ‘What Cancer Cannot Do’… I’ll highlight some of the chapter headings tomorrow.
God Bless. Pancakes here I come.
Monday, February 4, 2008
How Much Sleep Do I Need????
Hi Guys
Sorry I didn’t post over the weekend – I’ve been asleep! I have never slept so much in my life. Normally I'm a 5 hour a night man. Over the weekend I've been managing as much as 18 hours out of 24! Must be doing me some good.
I started to feel better yesterday; I suppose the intravenous stuff is beginning to work its way through my system. I was able to preach at Church yesterday morning - this was fantastic as its one of my favorite things in the whole world. I can’t tell you how much we appreciate our Church. What a brilliant bunch of people. The worship yesterday morning lifted the rafters, the singing would have made Charles Wesley proud!
My appetite has come back and I’ve even managed to put some weight on up to 12 stone 3. Since the summer hols I’ve lost 2 ½ stone, the first stone intentionally the next stone and half without any effort – this was one of the things that sent me to the doctors in the first place. For the 72 hours after the chemo you really don’t feel like eating anything and the thought of wine – argh!
My fingers and mouth are still as sensitive to the cold. The mouth is strange, it’s like the sparkle dust I had as a kid. The stuff that crackled in your mouth as you ate it….remember? Anyhows I take the last of my chemo tablets today. Nothing now again until the next cycle begins on Wednesday 20th.
I’m working on my master’s dissertation for Cliff College this week. I have to finish it by 31st March. I hope I can concentrate! I really want to graduate June 28th.
Hope you guys all had good days. God bless. Dave.
Sorry I didn’t post over the weekend – I’ve been asleep! I have never slept so much in my life. Normally I'm a 5 hour a night man. Over the weekend I've been managing as much as 18 hours out of 24! Must be doing me some good.
I started to feel better yesterday; I suppose the intravenous stuff is beginning to work its way through my system. I was able to preach at Church yesterday morning - this was fantastic as its one of my favorite things in the whole world. I can’t tell you how much we appreciate our Church. What a brilliant bunch of people. The worship yesterday morning lifted the rafters, the singing would have made Charles Wesley proud!
My appetite has come back and I’ve even managed to put some weight on up to 12 stone 3. Since the summer hols I’ve lost 2 ½ stone, the first stone intentionally the next stone and half without any effort – this was one of the things that sent me to the doctors in the first place. For the 72 hours after the chemo you really don’t feel like eating anything and the thought of wine – argh!
My fingers and mouth are still as sensitive to the cold. The mouth is strange, it’s like the sparkle dust I had as a kid. The stuff that crackled in your mouth as you ate it….remember? Anyhows I take the last of my chemo tablets today. Nothing now again until the next cycle begins on Wednesday 20th.
I’m working on my master’s dissertation for Cliff College this week. I have to finish it by 31st March. I hope I can concentrate! I really want to graduate June 28th.
Hope you guys all had good days. God bless. Dave.
Friday, February 1, 2008
Hard Day
Today has been a real struggle. I've spent most of it in bed feeling very tired - much more so than yesterday. I'm also feeling sick but the medication they've given me helps.
Had a call this morning from my brill Upper GI Nurse Elenaor Church to see how I was. Also from my mum and Mu and Ken from church.
I've been sent a great CD of 'soaking prayer' from Rupert & Uli Banqhart - great music and prayers a real encouragement.
Hopeing for more energy tomorrow - I've got things to do!
Had a call this morning from my brill Upper GI Nurse Elenaor Church to see how I was. Also from my mum and Mu and Ken from church.
I've been sent a great CD of 'soaking prayer' from Rupert & Uli Banqhart - great music and prayers a real encouragement.
Hopeing for more energy tomorrow - I've got things to do!
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